My Plan A

Yesterday I experienced a beautiful reminder that Heavenly Father is aware of me.  My mom and I went to a our good friend's house to get our hair done.  We got to chatting with the lady who had an appointment before ours.  As it turns out, her youngest son was adopted.  She was so kind as to share her experience with me and told me something that I have been thinking about ever since.

"Adoption is not plan B."

Adoption is part of Heavenly Father's plan.  He knew that there would be individuals who would make mistakes and that there would be children born to unwed mothers.  He knew that there would be couples who would want desperately to have children, but not be able to bring them into the world themselves.  He knew. 

I am always saddened to hear individuals say things like, "I hope I would never have to adopt," or "Oh, so do you have to adopt because you can't have kids?"

We do NOT feel that we HAVE to adopt.  We GET to adopt.

It is our choice.  It is our blessing.  We are so grateful beyond grateful for the miracle of adoption.  

I would love to be able to be the one to bring our babies into the world.  I would love to know what that feels like.  I would love to be able to have that experience with my sweetheart.  I know that there is no experience quite like it.  

But you know what? 

My plan A is to be a mother.

Childbirth and adoption are both ways to get there.  So is being a loving mother figure to the youth I serve in my calling.  So is nurturing and loving my nieces and nephews.  

I don't feel cheated by life.  I feel so grateful that Heavenly Father will help me with my own plan A.  The path I take will be different from many others, but that's okay because my path is special too.  I have never seen so many miracles in my entire life than when my husband and I began our journey to adopt.  I have never felt closer to my Savior.  It has been a sacred experience.  

Yesterday was yet another reminder that Heavenly Father is aware of our little family.  I know He is.